Well, okay. If you don't like it, then we have to do it. That is great, though - I mean, well, you know. I feel the exact same way, but I wasn't sure if you were wanting to do those types of things or not.
I too cannot eat around people. I hardly eat at school. I always eat a lot more at my house, but in public, I can't bring myself to fully gorge-myself the way I usually do. I can't eat anything messy at all, like fruits, or nachos, even though I love those things... especially fruits... I don't know. Part of me also feels weird, because I would waste the entire time eating, if I did that. And that time of day is the most that I get to spend with you, so you know. I am also a really slow eater.
And I would normally insist on paying for things, because I wouldn't want you to, but if you say that you simply don't like it, then I won't go against your wishes.
I feel the same about everything else, too. Movies; obvious reasons. The mall; well, I was more getting at that there are movies at the mall; really, I hate that place. I only go into shops to get what I need, then I try to leave that god-awful place before anyone I recognize sees me. And I hate strangers who look at me, too. But if you still want to see a movie, we could see what's playing.
I did want to talk to you, though. Just in general. About a lot. About how you're feeling, how you've felt, what's all been going, if anything has. I don't ever get to spend that kind of time with you.
And why are there good and bad memories, in those places? The creek is too private; and/but you refuse to go back there, for certain reasons? Why do I feel worried about that, again? Is there something bad?...
I could take you around my neighborhood, and we could walk some places. You might like it. And we could find some parks, and hopefully, no one would really be there. But I'm sure I could try and find someplace private. Even the back of buildings, and quiet neighborhoods, that I enjoy getting lost in. Walking is enjoyable.
I meant 'here' as in here, my general area. That would be like the parks and stuff, and then if you ended up wanting to go somewhere, we could drive.
I think it seems pretty clear, then - How about this? We just 'hang out' all day; walk places, in my neighborhood. Go to parks. Talk. Do stuff. I don't know what. But it's not anything you hate, so that's good, right? I'd like to just a spend a day with you.
And I think I know what I'm going to wear tomorrow - I went a little crazy last night, because I didn't what you were going to wear today. So I ended up wearing the tie today - tomorrow I planned on just a black long sleeve shirt - unless you want me to wear a tie! If so, which one? What kind of shirt? I have that white shirt, short sleeves - would you like that? Or I could wash another black dress shirt, and get a tie, again. But what tie would you want?... Or should I just go with the black long sleeve?... And a hoodie, in case I get too cold. For backup. It's all part of the plan. lol
I do kind of like when we 'match', though. I don't know what it is, I just like it.
And I wouldn't mind if you were to wear that kind of clothing, especially if you want to. Besides, no one would actually be here, this time. There would be no unwanted eyes following you around. Hah...
And what would I want you to wear, you ask? Anything! Really, I think you would look fine, in anything. I'm sorry I freak out about what I'm always going to wear, I know it seems really weird and strange... But know that it's not like I'd ever NOT want you to wear something, you know?
I don't think it sounds too dressy, but that's up to you. I didn't want to go too-formal, but I tend to wear some stuff kind of like that regularly now, anyway. If you want to be casual, I can be casual. If you want to wear a dress... Hmm... I think then I would have to wear a tie, then? And if the dress was black, I would have to wear my red tie, with the all-black shirt. Is that okay with you? What do you think?
I think... Well... Hmm... Now I'm confused again, trapped, in decision making! I don't know! But I've offered my inputs... lol
I want to look nice for you, too. That's the main reason I'm always freaking out about what I have to wear. But it's now become a kind of must-have-order type thing, that is a constant bother in my mind.
You would look nice for me, no matter what, Crimson. You always look nice for me. You always look nice.
And okay, that sounds cool. Whatever works with you.
I will... text you? - when I'm on my way. Is that alright? Or would you rather me do something different?
And okay, thank you! I will try not to get lost. Or killed.
Don't worry - when explains things it's usually in quantum physics, and in funny letters and numbers that only ALIENS understand. Your directions seem much simple-r.
Is spontaniety always good? Always?
Whatever works for me is what works for you... And if it works for you, it works for me. Hahaha...


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"Life Is Peachy"